sometimes i wonder. all the wat ifs in my life.
wat if this and wat if that. will this action change the entire course of my life? wat could have happen if i did this or that?

wat could have happen if i really decided to end it all that day? wat would become of me now? would i totally lose it and break down or..?

wat if i din chose the jc path. wat if i din get myself attached. would life be better? or worse?

wat if i dun meet my girls? wat if i dun have them in my life?

wat if i wasnt born in this screw family? wat could have happen if i'm brought up in a happy family full of love and care?

oh wells.

11.22pm. i'm losing it again. baby i miss u badly.

very weak.